i am back.lalala~

haluuuuuuu~

hisashiburi desu ne?

i dunno why i've lost the interest and effort to write here.

hurmmm~maybe it is because of the never-ending problems i had with my lappy (& life)

i've been missing something lately.and also someone.

i miss the less-short-tempered me.yup,that.i miss being patient.i miss being able to control my anger.i miss forgetting grudge.i miss ignoring hatred.all of that has comeback,and thus resulting in hurting people close to me.sucks!

i miss someone.exactly someone important to me one year ago.but definitely not one of my ex.never.i miss him(yes,a he).but things can never be the same again.i've made myself clear about my situation and position.i've been lied to,again.or maybe it's just me who cannot bear the truth.maybe it's me who lied to myself,creating illusions around me.or maybe he did lie to me.well,who knows.like i can real others' mind,right?oh!do i still give a damn bout it?

oh pliss,just let me forget.pliss.